1/19/10
After spending time with him on Sunday and having him confess his undying love for me and tell me how he would he would be with me until he was 93. I received an email this morning telling me that he has moved on. My heart is aching like it has never ached before. The loneliness is overwhelming. I am feeling lost confused angry and alone. Am I going to recover? Am I going to heal?The email arrived Tuesday morning at 7:30 and my life has not been the same since. Honestly an email while I was at a friend's house in New York and according to Ronic he "serendipitously" ran into this woman on Saturday and his heart beats for her. After giving him 2 and 1/2 years of my life this is what it comes down to. As I reflect back with my friend's they all seem to see the signs... How could I have been so dumb to believe the if I loved him enough he would change. He will do the same to this new Shannon in his life. He will drag her along, make her world change so that he is the focus of it, get bored and start seeking other women's attention. Just as his wife told me he would do to me because he did it to her and I am sure there is along line of women that I can not name. I would be willing to say that his new love does not know the details of our relationship or she would not be with him. He has a way of telling you just enough to make you feel sorry for him and think that he is the victim. Even as I am saying this I am so attached to him that letting him go may be very difficult.
